this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

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fiery november sky

by Denny Bitte

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a lonely place

by Denny Bitte

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immersed in midnight light

by Denny Bitte

It’s been two days since we lost Nanook and I’m still in that ‘curl up in bed and do nothing, everything is awful, I teared up walking past the dog toy section at work’ stage of grieving. 

But I’m taking comfort in a weird thing.

Some people believe that robin redbreasts are symbols of visits from the dead, or ‘signs’ from lost loved ones, and I do, too. They’ve long been my favourite bird, and for the past few months, every time I’ve been worried or upset about something, there’s been a robin in my garden, and then everything’s turned out okay. It’s gotten to the point where if I see a robin, I know I’ll be fine.

Yesterday, I was getting ready for work and looking out of the window when a robin landed on the fence outside. We looked at each other for a good while, and all I could think was, “there you are! there’s my robin!” and I knew that I would, eventually, feel okay.

Nanook, 02/06/2007 - 10/12/2018

My baby boy died this morning. The treatments we’d tried at the vet’s weren’t working and we were going to arrange for a vet to come on Tuesday and help him cross the bridge, but he decided on his own when to go–in his comfy bed, with my mum by his side. I was determined to be there when he passed on, but  I was staying at my grandma’s that night and woke up to the news. He was always very protective of us, especially me; maybe he just didn’t want me to see him go.

Before I found out, I had a dream where he was happy; where he was running with me. I think in a way, I got to say goodbye, see you later then. 

Wherever he is now, he’s running like a young dog. He’s healthy and happy and strong, like the dog I grew up with, who’d nigh-on wrench your arm out of its socket when you played tug-of-war, and who managed to pull over an eleven-year-old me and drag her for a good few metres.

I’m sorry I’ve not been very active and haven’t been doing too well at getting back to those who’ve messaged me.

I’ve got a big essay coming up, and we’re going to have to say goodbye to my dog, Nanook, soon. I’m heartbroken and just trying to spend some time with him while I can. 💚

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